Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Shopping for my baby daddy
Well, we went back to Iowa city for what we thought was a pre-op appointment last month. It turns out Matthew has high fsh levels, and slightly low testosterone. Dr. W isn't even worried about the vericole anymore. He suggested we go ahead with the TESE surgery, and then on to IVF. Now, Dr.W is really great, but his bedside manner blows sometimes. After he suggested going with IVF, he got up and started walking out the door. I don't think he was too amused when I stopped him with my 100 questions. So basically, the chance of finding sperm in Matthew is less then 10%, which means having the surgery is nearly out of the question. The surgery would cost us about 7,000 out of pocket plus IVF....10% chance isn't high enough for us.
We let that sink in for a couple days, and then I called Dr. Figge (my RE) in desperation. Dr. Figge's office is always a breath of fresh air. I talked the nurse, which is also his wife, for at least 45 minuets. We discussed our options, and decided to try a IUI with donor sperm. I was blown away when she gave me websites to purchase the sperm. I honestly didn't know where you would get sperm at, but shopping for your baby daddy online just cracked me up.
So, I think we are going to just have a relaxing summer and dive into this in the fall. I'm going to go back on my meds and try to ovulate a couple times before we even buy the sperm.
On the upside...my best friend is moving home! She's been gone for two years with her husband who is in the national gaurd getting his masters and becoming a PA! Now this Auntie will be a lean mean spoiling machine to my cute nephews!
We let that sink in for a couple days, and then I called Dr. Figge (my RE) in desperation. Dr. Figge's office is always a breath of fresh air. I talked the nurse, which is also his wife, for at least 45 minuets. We discussed our options, and decided to try a IUI with donor sperm. I was blown away when she gave me websites to purchase the sperm. I honestly didn't know where you would get sperm at, but shopping for your baby daddy online just cracked me up.
So, I think we are going to just have a relaxing summer and dive into this in the fall. I'm going to go back on my meds and try to ovulate a couple times before we even buy the sperm.
On the upside...my best friend is moving home! She's been gone for two years with her husband who is in the national gaurd getting his masters and becoming a PA! Now this Auntie will be a lean mean spoiling machine to my cute nephews!
Monday, April 04, 2011
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
I should just grow a lemon tree
Matt and I ventured to Iowa City a couple weeks ago to see the male infertility specialist. He did another semen analysis, with the same result of a zero sperm count. Honestly, I was disappointed. I knew in my head that it would be the same, but my heart was really hoping that the lab that did his first one was wrong. The dr found a small left-sided varicocele. Basically it's like varicose veins in his scrotum. However, this varicocele alone might not explain why there are no sperm seen on semen analysis. The doctor suggested some genetic testing, and to come back in 4 weeks for a pre-op appointment.
What a waiting game. Do this, wait 4 weeks, have surgery, wait 3-6 months. I am tired of waiting. I am tired of feeling alone. I am just tired of the whole process.
What a waiting game. Do this, wait 4 weeks, have surgery, wait 3-6 months. I am tired of waiting. I am tired of feeling alone. I am just tired of the whole process.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
If J Hud can do it...So can I
Jennifer Hudson was on Oprah. She lost 80 pounds on Weight watchers and looks smokin! If she can do it, so can I. It's been 5 weeks and I've lost 10.6 pounds! Slowly but surely it's melting off! I'm thinking though, if I stick to it on the weekends, I'd have better luck ;)
Since we found out about Matthew, I've thrown myself into work. Working 60+ hours a week, hardly sleeping, having too much fun on the weekends....I'm exhausted. I made myself sick. I caught a nasty viral thing and was forced to take off work a couple days. It was great not having to work and it really helped to catch up on sleep. On the other hand. I was home alone with my thoughts. The first day I cried. Why us? I don't get it. The second day was better. It seems as though maybe some of the pressure was taken off my shoulders. Maybe some of the blame as well. It doesn't nearly bother me as much to talk to all the pregnant women at work. I got caught up on the the baby pictures people posted on facebook, and actully commented on them. It still stings, but it seems.....easier.
We go to the male infertility specialist on the 23rd. I can't wait. I need to know our options so we can move ahead. But before our appointment, I get to go see these:
My best friend had twins a couple weeks ago, and the flight look great so I'm off to El Paso on Thursday! Owen and Isaac need their Auntie.
Since we found out about Matthew, I've thrown myself into work. Working 60+ hours a week, hardly sleeping, having too much fun on the weekends....I'm exhausted. I made myself sick. I caught a nasty viral thing and was forced to take off work a couple days. It was great not having to work and it really helped to catch up on sleep. On the other hand. I was home alone with my thoughts. The first day I cried. Why us? I don't get it. The second day was better. It seems as though maybe some of the pressure was taken off my shoulders. Maybe some of the blame as well. It doesn't nearly bother me as much to talk to all the pregnant women at work. I got caught up on the the baby pictures people posted on facebook, and actully commented on them. It still stings, but it seems.....easier.
We go to the male infertility specialist on the 23rd. I can't wait. I need to know our options so we can move ahead. But before our appointment, I get to go see these:
My best friend had twins a couple weeks ago, and the flight look great so I'm off to El Paso on Thursday! Owen and Isaac need their Auntie.
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